Even more changes!!

I've always liked a bit of a change in my life,to keep things moving forward,to improve myself n my life and just basically to experience something new! Typically I am known for changeing my hair alot! And yet again I have changed it...I wanted to use henna,thought it'd be good for my hair and that it wouldn't fade as much and therefor be cost effective. Well it I would've kept it if it hadn't have basically been ginger..not really what I was wanting from red henna! So I just took my carnation pink direction pots back to the shop I had bought em from ( you get 3 for £10 n I had 2 non opened ones left) and they kindly let me swap them for poppy red :). I used to have red hair when I was about 17 or 18 and loved it! I always wanted to go back to it but for some reason never really stuck with it for that long. N I know even n their shadow are dying their hair various reds right now but I don't care! I really adore it and hopefuly will keep it cause well blonde makes me look to red..black washes me out,pink makes me look pasty n any other colour is just a no from me! Here is a pic of my new hair anywho!

 I don't think I will take pics of me with my webcam when I haven't been up for that long again lol! But yeah this is the new me n my new hair :)

Other changes are:

My midwife came to see me and has referred me to get some counsilling as I have been quite depressive while pregnant,which is normal when you have had depression for as long as I have. I'm really looking forward to getting some proper help and getting over it really. Not that I don't have enough support from Clark and my friends n family it's just this is the type of thing that could use the help of a pro, n to be honest a stranger as it always seems easier to talk to someone you don't know about your problems doesn't it!

Me n my ex have been talkin n honestly I was so surprised when he said he was happy for me n clark n stuff! I realised mayeb he had grown up since our last trying to be friends time and have given him a chance again by accepting his friendship request on facebook. It's nice when people can just be nice to each other despite havin gone out or whatever!

I rememberd my love of grindcore,anarcho punk,punk and ska music and have been listerning to lots of different songs on youtube :). Sometimes its easy to forget about bands when the cds you had of them have been knackered n thrown away!

I also rediscovered how nice it is to just be a bit girly n read a mag,paint ya nails,shave ya legs, n wear a face mask,watch sex n the city n eat choc! I had a really girly night in on my own last night n loved it! I put my directions dye on n my shower cap,watched take me out and sex n the city n ate vegan choccie,then had a nice bath where I managed to shave my legs..it is afterall legs out season here in sheffield n I hadn't bothered for a while. It is quite hard with a bump in the way lol! And then I painted my nails n rad company magazine. My nice night was finished of with a sweet phonecall from Clark. He seems to be really missing me bless him. And I have realised just how much I love him,its easy to be annoyed with someone when you live with them lol! But the space seems to be good and we want to make our relationship alot better when he gets back. Which means me not bein so mardy n hormorneal n us bickering to be quite honest! Being pregnant quite soon into a relationship is hard, we knew each other before for a while but there wasn't very long from us startin to be together to us findin out I was pregnant n then for all the crazy hormornes n mixed feelings to kick in! So it has been quite an odd relationship for us really. But we really do have a nice time most of the time n our days out n nights in together are so special to me!

N that's why I looked at how I was behaving and feelin n decided I'd had enough n was going to change n get more postive n happy :), yesterday reminded me of alot of nice things I have in my life,I even got to spend the day out with a friend who I used to see alot just us two n then started to only really see at our knitting group. So it was really nice for us to just hang out and chat about stuff,I always find it so easy to just chat about anything with her :). I also helped her out by takin a few pics of a few tops she had made for her label,which is something I used to do for her and had missed, so it was nice to do a bit of photography with a purpose!

Things are looking up and I've realised alot of how my life is has to do with my attitude towards it and stuff. After all life is what YOU make it!