Week 20!!!

This week the baby is 20 weeks old! I know this fo sho as we had our scan last week and they measured as we thought 19 weeks. I have been a bit angsty about this landmark over the last few weeks and saying to my friends,family and Clark that I feel so strange about giving birth n meeting the baby in max 20 weeks. The thing is I know that once they get to around 35-37 weeks they could come at any time! So really once I get to 30 weeks that will be it ,every week I will feel more n more anxious n excited and rushed to do everything just so! I can't believe how fast these past 20 weeks have gone it seems like only last week I was peein on about 10 sticks through the weekend just to make sure it was a positive! Yes I know that is a bit much but I was just so shocked! Clark say's he just knew without me even doing the test,n I hope to always remember how happy we were when he came to my flat after I had done them n we had a big hug n just acted gob smacked.

We have done quite alot to prepare for the baby's arrival allready but there is also SO much we still need to do! Such as choose a name! As the baby was in an awkward curled up postition when we had both scans they are a total surprise,though we have a feeling it is a boy..n I would hope so as pretty much everyone we know has or is having girls! I always thought I would want a girl more than a boy when I daydreamed about having childern but actually going through it as made me think actually I don't mind aslong as they are happy and healthy!

Anywho I feel the pressure is on now and that there isn't that much time to do everything so hopefuly making lists and being mega organised about it all will help! Clark seems to be taking a more laid back approach and has been good at thinking of what kinda toys n playmats would be good,he also thinks that maybe waiting untill their born so we know a) what they are n b) how big they are would be good so we can get them the right clothes. We have a few different sized babygros n stuff so far so atleast they will be a few things for them to wear until we go on a big clothes shop for them :)...now that should be fun!

Personally at the week 20 point I am feeling quite energetic,positive and happy. I also seem to be on hypo mode where I feel like I have a 100 things to do at once which is kinda half good half annoying! Atleast I am gettin as much done as I can with what time is left I gusse. I am also gettin good at doing things with friends and Clark n making the most of the flexible social time I have left as realistically when baby gets here it will become harder for me to go out n see my friends alot n for me n Clark to go out n do whatever we want whenever we want to. I don't feel to bad about that though n like that I actually appreciate my/our time alot more! My bump has gotten quite big all of a sudden, I daren't weigh myself to be honest but I haven't put on alot of weight at all, my friend said she's really happy n proud with me for eatin well n stuff as sometimes women use pregnancy as an excuse to overeat lol! I have been finding it hard to find a comftable bra now that I have grown a bit more and that is actually the only thing that has annoyed me about bein pregnant! Not even the need to pee alot has been that bad for me! I feel mega lucky that I haven't been really sick or busting for the loo all the time or not able to eat alot etc etc..pregnancy seems to be treating me rather well :). I am nervous about the third trimester which is only about 4 weeks away...I have read that I could gain up to a stonne n a half which is understandable as baby is tryin to get to the right weight n stuff..but it does sound awfully heavy n like I will get into alot of back achey times. Also my energy levels could drop back down as well meaning going back to the not wanting to do much stage. Which is why I have been trying to do as much as I can now really.

Overall me n baby are doing just fine. I know they are doin fine as we have felt them move loads! The first time was thrusday Clark felt them n it made me jump! Second time Clark was out n I was just lied watching tv on saturday eve n all of a sudden lots of movement it made me smile n laugh as it was just so weirdly special! And they moved a little last night when we was out n my friend had a feel which made her pretty happy. 

And that is how the pregnancy n me n baby n Clark are at this big landmark in our lifes :)